Teenage Diaries- III

Dear Diary,

This current of emotions inside of me doesn't let me settle down. I have never been this confused. Rather, I have never been confused. For a 15 year old girl, who has best mom in the world and has everything that could make her happy, confusion or tension are just words that could be found in dictionary.

But what happened today has shook me. Inside out. I don't know what to do.

I saw mumma in a totally different avatar today. I had never seen this aspect of her personality. I have always known her as a strong willed single parent and a composed lady.

One thing I got to know today for sure is Nitin Sahney is not my father. But who is he then is the question. I cant ask mumma right now. She asked me for some lone time. And as she said, she is going to tell me everything when the right time comes. When will the right time come?

When mumma told me today that she was coming along to meet this Sahney man with me, I sensed it was going to be something huge today. But I never expected her to lose her temper that bad on anyone. She was screaming at the top of her voice. All I could make out was she telling him to stay away from me and this Sahney guy was constantly telling her that she could not stop him.


Mumma dint talk at all on the way back home except when she told me that he is not my father.
This is such a mess. I donot want to see this man again. I donot want to upset mumma. And I donot understand what the hell is going on. This sure is not going to be easy. I see the future with distress.. One part of me wants to solve this mystery and another part of me wants it to end right here. I was a happy kid. I want my life back.

I hear the door creek, looks like mumma has come out..

TTYL Diary,
Rehmat.


P.S. Next and most probably the concluding part coming soon.
P.P.S. Apologies for keeping you all waiting for this long time :D