Friday, 22 April 2011
Since We Are Being Honest...
When I said I was going to remember you when you are gone, I meant it. Because I thought you will be gone before it is time for me to move on. But somehow, you stayed single. But I have to move on.
I have been waiting for your reaction. I wanted you to react loud and give 'us' a closure, so that I can escape my guilt of leaving you midway. Also, somewhere down, I wanted badly you to beg me to be by your side because I wanted to reject you.
Why on the face of Earth you haven't said anything? Why, are you okay that I am moving on and you are still out there alone? Did I miss anything? Did I miss seeing you gone?
This has taken my peace away. I have been trying too hard to be mean with you, to provoke you. I know you know it deep down, that I am frustrated because of your 'coolness' about this issue.
May be you are doing this on purpose. To make me feel bad.
I guess you have every right to...
Wednesday, 2 February 2011
Dhobighat- Not the movie.
I come out in the balcony with a bucket full of washed clothes.
My husband gifted me a FBI fully automatic washing machine on my last birthday. But I hardly use it. I like washing clothes with my bare hands. Its not because I am too naive to understand how it works, it is because removing dirt from the clothes gives me weird comfort.
I start spreading the clothes on the cables. Mrs. Mehra from the opposite balcony smiles at me. She tries to engage me in a conversation, I smile and come back telling her my phone is ringing.
I come in and spot the dirty duster in the corner, I pick it up and start rubbing the fingerprints from the glass top of the center table.
Will those dirty fingerprints on my body come off ever, I always wonder.
My husband is here. He is going to see water dripping off the wet clothes in the balcony and ask me again to use the washing machine.
He will then ask me to get a dhobi come to our place and collect laundry because everyone does that.
And I will start screaming on the mention of dhobi and faint. Like everyday.