Thursday, 25 February 2010
Teenage Diaries- III
Dear Diary,
This current of emotions inside of me doesn't let me settle down. I have never been this confused. Rather, I have never been confused. For a 15 year old girl, who has best mom in the world and has everything that could make her happy, confusion or tension are just words that could be found in dictionary.
But what happened today has shook me. Inside out. I don't know what to do.
I saw mumma in a totally different avatar today. I had never seen this aspect of her personality. I have always known her as a strong willed single parent and a composed lady.
One thing I got to know today for sure is Nitin Sahney is not my father. But who is he then is the question. I cant ask mumma right now. She asked me for some lone time. And as she said, she is going to tell me everything when the right time comes. When will the right time come?
When mumma told me today that she was coming along to meet this Sahney man with me, I sensed it was going to be something huge today. But I never expected her to lose her temper that bad on anyone. She was screaming at the top of her voice. All I could make out was she telling him to stay away from me and this Sahney guy was constantly telling her that she could not stop him.
Mumma dint talk at all on the way back home except when she told me that he is not my father.
This is such a mess. I donot want to see this man again. I donot want to upset mumma. And I donot understand what the hell is going on. This sure is not going to be easy. I see the future with distress.. One part of me wants to solve this mystery and another part of me wants it to end right here. I was a happy kid. I want my life back.
I hear the door creek, looks like mumma has come out..
TTYL Diary,
Rehmat.
P.S. Next and most probably the concluding part coming soon.
P.P.S. Apologies for keeping you all waiting for this long time :D
This current of emotions inside of me doesn't let me settle down. I have never been this confused. Rather, I have never been confused. For a 15 year old girl, who has best mom in the world and has everything that could make her happy, confusion or tension are just words that could be found in dictionary.
But what happened today has shook me. Inside out. I don't know what to do.
I saw mumma in a totally different avatar today. I had never seen this aspect of her personality. I have always known her as a strong willed single parent and a composed lady.
One thing I got to know today for sure is Nitin Sahney is not my father. But who is he then is the question. I cant ask mumma right now. She asked me for some lone time. And as she said, she is going to tell me everything when the right time comes. When will the right time come?
When mumma told me today that she was coming along to meet this Sahney man with me, I sensed it was going to be something huge today. But I never expected her to lose her temper that bad on anyone. She was screaming at the top of her voice. All I could make out was she telling him to stay away from me and this Sahney guy was constantly telling her that she could not stop him.
Mumma dint talk at all on the way back home except when she told me that he is not my father.
This is such a mess. I donot want to see this man again. I donot want to upset mumma. And I donot understand what the hell is going on. This sure is not going to be easy. I see the future with distress.. One part of me wants to solve this mystery and another part of me wants it to end right here. I was a happy kid. I want my life back.
I hear the door creek, looks like mumma has come out..
TTYL Diary,
Rehmat.
P.S. Next and most probably the concluding part coming soon.
P.P.S. Apologies for keeping you all waiting for this long time :D
Wednesday, 27 January 2010
Teenage Diaries- II
Dear Diary,
Something strange happened today. Tanay and I were out for shopping in the mall waiting for Sukriti at CCD. Sukriti had to join us there only. As always. Miss late she was. And this man, walked towards me. He asked us if he could join us for a while. The man looked elegant somewhere in his late thirties or early forties. Tanay was suspicious, but I let him stay. He introduced himself as Nitin Sahney, a writer and a journalist. He told us he was doing a story on teenagers that is why he wanted to talk to us.
I dont know, but I liked the flair with what he talked. He asked us if we could spend an hour or so every week with him. Tanay dint seem to mind. Sukriti seemed enthusiastic. I was somehow a little confused.
When I told mumma about the incidence, she told me to never see that man again. I am skeptical. Mumma always encourages to interact with people. But why all of sudden she was so stern and telling me "not to talk to strangers"? Weird it is.
I have never seen her so rigid before. Except when I last time asked her whereabouts of my father. All she said was he wanted to kill me before I was born so they separated.
Does this name Nitin Sahney got something to do with it?
I need to know.
Something strange happened today. Tanay and I were out for shopping in the mall waiting for Sukriti at CCD. Sukriti had to join us there only. As always. Miss late she was. And this man, walked towards me. He asked us if he could join us for a while. The man looked elegant somewhere in his late thirties or early forties. Tanay was suspicious, but I let him stay. He introduced himself as Nitin Sahney, a writer and a journalist. He told us he was doing a story on teenagers that is why he wanted to talk to us.
I dont know, but I liked the flair with what he talked. He asked us if we could spend an hour or so every week with him. Tanay dint seem to mind. Sukriti seemed enthusiastic. I was somehow a little confused.
When I told mumma about the incidence, she told me to never see that man again. I am skeptical. Mumma always encourages to interact with people. But why all of sudden she was so stern and telling me "not to talk to strangers"? Weird it is.
I have never seen her so rigid before. Except when I last time asked her whereabouts of my father. All she said was he wanted to kill me before I was born so they separated.
Does this name Nitin Sahney got something to do with it?
I need to know.
Wednesday, 13 January 2010
Teenage Diaries
Dear Diary,
Today was my best birthday ever. Mumma woke me up with a nice smelling cup of coffee and huge poster of Robert Pattinson and a set of the Twilight series. At times I feel awkward talking to her about my admiration for the Edward Cullen's' character. But she says I am her friend, so I can share anything with her.
Sukriti and Tanay were here as expected to wish me birthday and escort me to school. I love them both. To my wonder, Tanay had brought a bunch of Tulips for me, I was expecting chocolates as always. And why did he tremble today while kissing me on my left cheek? We have grown up pulling each others' hair and teasing each other and now all of sudden this hesitation?
Everyone in school says that he is my boy friend. Does he too think the same?
School was good. Obviously, gone are the days of dressing up in casuals and distributing sweets, but yeah, Canteen treat is fun. Whole class was there. Sandeep sir came too. He gave me "How to kill a Mocking Bird." Does he have any idea that I like him?
Mumma kept her promise and was there to pick me after school. She took me, Tanay and Sukriti fro Lunch at Yo! China and some shopping later on. How we love Chinese food. I still have that ear to ear grin as I write this.
The biggest surprise was rather waiting at home. Mumma finally succeeded to make me keep a mobile phone. She bought me Samsung Corby Pink. I could not say no. hehe.. She says she wants to stay connected to me where ever I was.. Sukriti says moms are like that only.
Bade Mumma would be here any time with my favorite chocolate cake. She bakes the most delicious cakes in the world.
I am the luckiest person in the whole wide world to have the loved ones love me so much and have all my wishes fulfilled. Except one. When will I know where my dad is..
And the door bell rings.
TTYL Diary.
Love,
Rehmat.
P.S. This series is first person presentation of a teenage girl. The excerpts from her diary. A total new venture I am exploring. Next part coming soon..
Today was my best birthday ever. Mumma woke me up with a nice smelling cup of coffee and huge poster of Robert Pattinson and a set of the Twilight series. At times I feel awkward talking to her about my admiration for the Edward Cullen's' character. But she says I am her friend, so I can share anything with her.
Sukriti and Tanay were here as expected to wish me birthday and escort me to school. I love them both. To my wonder, Tanay had brought a bunch of Tulips for me, I was expecting chocolates as always. And why did he tremble today while kissing me on my left cheek? We have grown up pulling each others' hair and teasing each other and now all of sudden this hesitation?
Everyone in school says that he is my boy friend. Does he too think the same?
School was good. Obviously, gone are the days of dressing up in casuals and distributing sweets, but yeah, Canteen treat is fun. Whole class was there. Sandeep sir came too. He gave me "How to kill a Mocking Bird." Does he have any idea that I like him?
Mumma kept her promise and was there to pick me after school. She took me, Tanay and Sukriti fro Lunch at Yo! China and some shopping later on. How we love Chinese food. I still have that ear to ear grin as I write this.
The biggest surprise was rather waiting at home. Mumma finally succeeded to make me keep a mobile phone. She bought me Samsung Corby Pink. I could not say no. hehe.. She says she wants to stay connected to me where ever I was.. Sukriti says moms are like that only.
Bade Mumma would be here any time with my favorite chocolate cake. She bakes the most delicious cakes in the world.
I am the luckiest person in the whole wide world to have the loved ones love me so much and have all my wishes fulfilled. Except one. When will I know where my dad is..
And the door bell rings.
TTYL Diary.
Love,
Rehmat.
P.S. This series is first person presentation of a teenage girl. The excerpts from her diary. A total new venture I am exploring. Next part coming soon..
Saturday, 9 January 2010
The Confession
I felt too weak to stand up and walk or cover myself.
He just tore me apart and emptied himself.
I could not see him walk away as if I was just a utility with no emotions.
And before I knew anything, there was blood all around and a broken beer bottle in my hand.